After nearly two months of silence and browsing the web journals of friends I feel like I need to say something. SOMETHING for goodness sake. I am not trying to test God, nor trying to mock him, or make him deliver/carry me. That is not my intent nor my motive and if that has happened, then let him find that fault in me, for he sees everything-- both what is on the inside as well as the outside. To you, I ask that you remember that objects in mirror are not what they appear.

I am greived at the fact I seem to have estranged so many people I hold dear, but unfortuantly the solution is not a simple one and Im a chot horse...

There's people been friendly, but they'll never be a friend; sometimes this has bent me to the ground; ... the Jordan is waiting...